Talking to myself

Long time since I have been alone for some time, started talking to myself again...

The point of the talk was none whatsoever as usual, but I am committing the fallacy of drawing conclusions (again as usual); the conclusion is "be honest", in your dealings, your relationships, your thoughts, your actions. I conclude that this is the single most important rule to follow, if you are really looking for some rules to follow.

I will not get into the details of the conversation because it's such a drag to write all that down, but I am happy that I still believe I am what I want myself to be. All the marketing jargon still cannot replace the beauty and joy of an honest conversation.

But the catch, and there's always a catch, is that this rule is the simplest as well as the most difficult rule to follow, both at the same time. I sincerely wish (even pray) I never lose the courage to think or act otherwise; that it remains ridiculously easy to be myself, always. Cheers to the self!

Almost...

This way that way, left or right
The wind blows, the smoke is light
Wanting to leave a trail behind
Running in circles, nothing bright
You got to see it twist and roll
Seems almost like it knows, yes almost as if in control...

Have you seen the butterfly
Sure is pretty,sure does try
Remembers nothing of the nothingness
All these colors, make me cry
You got to see it twist and roll
Seems almost like it knows, yes almost as if in control...

Must be laughing, behind closed doors
Though I wonder still if it's me or he knows
Maybe a roll, poker, might even be chess
High up above this is how it goes
"You got to see it twist and roll
Seems almost like it knows, yes almost as if in control..."

You must remember this...

I watched Casablanca a few days back, thought it was an awesome movie. Great actors, great(if not the greatest) dialogs, a love struggle woven beautifully with the struggle of war, and some great jazz. But I don't want to talk about the movie here, it's this song "As time goes by", which I really liked, and when I searched for the original, it was even better with the complete lyrics. The lyrics are amazing and the music is all what good jazz should be made of. Am posting the lyrics here, if you can, do listen to the song....enjoy!

"This day and age we're living in
Gives cause for apprehension
With speed and new invention
And things like fourth dimension.

Yet we get a trifle weary
With Mr. Einstein's theory.
So we must get down to earth at times
Relax relieve the tension

And no matter what the progress
Or what may yet be proved
The simple facts of life are such
They cannot be removed.

You must remember this
A kiss is just a kiss, a sigh is just a sigh.
The fundamental things apply
As time goes by.

And when two lovers woo
They still say, "I love you."
On that you can rely
No matter what the future brings
As time goes by.

Moonlight and love songs
Never out of date.
Hearts full of passion
Jealousy and hate.
Woman needs man
And man must have his mate
That no one can deny.

It's still the same old story
A fight for love and glory
A case of do or die.
The world will always welcome lovers
As time goes by.

Oh yes, the world will always welcome lovers
As time goes by."

A mind of my own

I realized messed up priorities coupled with lack of reason can lead to so much chaos. And its not only about the chaos, the damage done can be much greater than what it seems to be on the face of it. Its funny watching people (both friends and foes) go to such great lengths for something as insignificant as power, that too power on a scale as small as a hostel or a college. Friendships are forgotten(stronger words can be used), deceit replaces honor, the line between right and wrong ceases to exist, every last bit of morality is flushed down the drains to what purpose? Have the "eternal" principles of honor and righteousness become obsolete, have they gone out of fashion these days?
I may be too much of an idealist here, and I totally agree that foresight, emotions and attachments sometimes demand things which may not qualify as "absolutely" right, but is there any limit to all this? Even if one thinks practically, is a GS post really worth giving up years of friendship, is reputation in college reason enough to kill your own conscience? Some actions may be justified on emotional grounds, sometimes helping a dear one fulfill his dream or revenge for a wronged friend is great motivation indeed, but even here the damage done to so many others by a single action goes neglected, and most do it to satisfy their own vanity anyways.
This jumbled up array of words reflects the jumbled up clot of thoughts in my mind, frankly my emotions, my anger once or twice convinced me too to leave my principles behind, but now I realize again that wrong can never be justified unless the justification itself is wrong. Right and wrong may not be as absolute as two sides of a coin, but when the time comes, it becomes clear deep in our hearts, only it is up to us whether to follow it or not.

not Preity

I was trying to sketch Preity Zinta today....didn't quite turn out as I had pictured it....even the editing in photoshop was in vain. But in my defense I do not have a pencil with me and the crayon I was using was really blunt :D
Anyways, am still uploading both, the sketch n the edited image.